Mermaid Dream

Dream baby, dream baby of False Creek.

Yeh dream baby, dream baby of what you need.

See it baby!

Rolling on an ocean with crashing waves in the morning.

On a misty day.

Floating for a lifetime while looking for the moonlight.

Kiss me baby.

Wave at your discovery.

Seeing you now it's meant to be.

My mermaid dream.

Mermaid dream.

Dream baby, dream baby of False Creek.

Yeh dream baby, dream baby of what you need.

See it baby!

Swimming along the river wall.

Under glowing rays at sunrise.

Warm your face!

Flirting with a dandelion at the waters edge at high tide.

Cole Harbour.

Splash and wave... your lonely.

Float for days then wash away.

My mermaid dream.

Mermaid dream.

Dream baby, dream baby of False Creek.

Yeh dream baby, dream baby of what you need.

See it baby!

Bouncing off a tidal wave that left you here in the shade.

On a rainy night.

Dream baby, dream baby of False Creek.

Yeh dream baby, dream baby of what you need.

See it baby!

See it baby.!

Dream baby, yeh dream baby.

Dream.

Dream it baby!

Misery Eyes

She would come like a hurricane through town.

And eyes and smiles would glow when she came around.

Please see that she finds her way out.

And keep her warm from all of those who doubt.

She is a girl with Misery Eyes!

I've looked inside, so deep inside.

Those Misery Eyes!

She would dance on a freight train sometimes.

While blowing kisses and singing nursery rhymes.

Then she could whisper in a heart-wrenching shout.

That would touch your soul and leave you wondering about.

How really deep are those Misery Eyes!

I've seen them myself, and fell so far inside.

Those Misery Eyes!

Misery Eyes!

You'd fall and cry and see the reason why.

When you look inside those Misery Eyes!

Oh those Misery Eyes!

She would bend in the wind yet cry like a child.

Shimmering and glimmering with wild style.

Hopefully her silent cries are alive.

As she wishes upon a blazing star in the sky.

As the moonlight glows in Misery Eyes!

Gleaming and dreaming her tears are swelling inside.

Those Misery Eyes!

Her Misery Eyes!

You plunge inside and feel her arise.

When you look inside those Misery Eyes!

Oh those Misery Eyes.

Then she would leave without a reason or rhyme.

Her vacancy would glow like a neon sign.

Please see that she is not cold and lost.

Lord hold her close as she makes her way across.

And wipe the tears away from those Misery Eyes!

I knew them well and fell so deep inside.

Those Misery Eyes!

The Day

The day I found a penny I was sweeping up the garage and it turned out to be the kind of day where you say to yourself, "Man, I wish I had a lucky penny." One wrong turn turned into another bad move then the familiar pathways suddenly became a slippery walkway. Go figure ..... Ya'll!

Remember

I was born on a cold misty mountain.

Life was a joy like a bird at a fountain.

Then suddenly I crawled.

On doors and floors and walls.

And I remember.

I remember it all!

I was just a boy when a crazy story swept me away.

Then all the days unraveled like melting snow in disarray.

As a child I'd fly.

On candy clouds and rides.

And I remember.

I remember it all.

I remember running around.

Standing up and falling down.

And I remember sunshine.

Melting clouds in my mind.

Ohhh... I remember

Yes I remember.

I remember it all!

Jumping around on grassy hills and a playground of gravel.

Carefree mystery was the road I traveled.

There I stood and called.

For motor cars and dolls.

Yes I remember.

I remember it all!

Just Enough

A country store is closing tonight.

And settling in to quiet time.

All the lights are glowing.

And every girl from all around.

Is making plans for the big town.

She's waking up, waking up from her dreams.

Winning and losing it stirs you up.

Yearning and learning is almost just enough.

Falling and flying will spin you around.

Almost just enough.

To feel found.

Endless tales of better ways.

From stories of the good old days.

Yet all the while we're drifting.

And when we find a silver road.

With no-one on we choose to go.

We go alone... we go alone while crying.

Dancing and working even when it's rough.

Believing and hoping that it's just enough.

Rising and crying under perfect skies so blue.

Hoping it's just enough.

And it's true.

A city dream is closing tonight.

Wallowing in the moonlight.

And every beam is showing.

That tainted smiles when they shine.

Can take a stand on hillsides.

And start heading home... to their dreams.

Winning and losing it stirs you up.

Yearning and learning is almost just enough.

Falling and flying will spin you around.

Almost just enough.

To feel found.

It's just enough to feel found.

It's just enough to stand your ground.

Just enough!

The Other Way

Written with a pen.

Sealed with a kiss.

Will you leave me alone dear.

Please answer me this?

Out of all the love I've known.

You're the one I'll never forget.

Your heart is like a bar of gold.

Hard to get.... hard to hold.

I do believe in God above.

Created you and me for love.

If I go to heaven.

And you're not there.

I'll write you're name on a golden star.

And the world will know I care.

By judgement day.... I'll know you've gone.....

The other way.

I'll give the angels extra wings.

Their golden harps will sing and ring.

Proving that my love is true.

I'll go down there and be with you.

If I go to heaven.

And you're not there.

I'll write you're name on a golden star.

And the world will know I care.

By judgement day.... I'll know you've gone.....

The other way.

Remembering what we said.

So tangled up in bliss.

I'd take the burning flames my dear.

To pull you up for a kiss.

Like the storm that ripped us apart.

Our love will always be this.

If I go to heaven.

And you're not there.

I'll write you're name on a golden star.

If you're not there.

By judgement day.... I'll know you've gone.....

The other way.

Butterflies Through Windows

I see butterflies through windows.

And I think all the time it's a hoax.

And I feel like a child on a circus ride.

Not knowing it's all just a joke.

I know the truth is a riddle.

Somewhere in forgotten hope.

But does it make any difference.

We hang by the end of the rope.

Streak across the window.

Like seeing a ghost.

Always close to zero.

Butterflies through windows.

I've walked the beauty of knowing.

Stood alone away from the road.

And it seemed like a foreign land.

When you're a soul returning to home.

Streak across the window.

Like seeing a ghost.

Always close to zero.

Butterflies through windows.

Like seeing butterflies through windows!

Reaching Out

I'm reaching out.

From the ruins of my life.

Yeh I'm reaching out.

And I'm reaching out.

For something warm that isn't there.

I'm reaching out.

Yes I'm reaching out.

From hidden years of laying down.

I'm reaching out.

Baby I'm reaching out.

For streaking stars that disappear.

Just reaching out.

Waving my arms and hiding my face.

Holding tight to my dreams that slip away.

I lose my way.

When I'm reaching out.........

Like lightning bolts!

Empty dreams in the darkest hour like lightning bolts.

They open my eyes from wavering smiles and a dull blade is tearing.

Through me.

I'm reaching out.

For streaking stars!

I'm reaching out... from the ruins of my life.

Yeh I'm reaching out.

For something warm that isn't there.

I'm reaching out.

Holding my dreams I loose my way.

Maybe I'm simply reaching the wrong way.

Still reaching out.

For streaking stars!

For something warm that isn't there.

From hidden years of laying down.

For streaking stars that disappear.

They shine on me yet leave me here!

I'm reaching out!

I'm reaching out!

REACHING OUT!

Blue Angel

Sweetheart I have seen the hours of the day.

Roll right past you like a windy wave.

And when you finally take the time.

To look behind.

Teardrops will fall.

Because that's when you see.

Was it all just for fun?

Was it only passing time?

Was it all just make believe?

My Angel.

My sweet blue Angel.

Blue Angel!

Sweetheart when the sky is grey.

Start singing and don't forget it doesn't have to slip away.

Just drift away into a sleepy nursery rhyme.

And don't ever ask why.

Start singing for sanity.

You'll be.

Twisted yet crowned.

Laughing at the clowns.

And baby there will be shooting stars.

My Angel.

My sweet blue Angel.

Blue Angel!

Don't ever let that broken heart beat you.

You are an Angel.

Blue.... for now

But... an Angel

My Angel.

My sweet blue Angel.

Blue Angel!

Wow - E

Fly on the wall, listen while falling.

Through the other side of the mirror.

But when walls don't fall.

And all feelings are foreign.

You need to turn around my dear.

Relegate and confiscate.

Justify and congregate.

Wow - E!

News of the day.

Why is the judge in town?

Bouncing babies on his knee.

He starts speaking the words

That have no meaning.

In all newspapers and dreams.

Complicate and negotiate.

Fall apart and take the bait.

Wow - E!

Get stuck in the race.

A fast and blinding pace.

Swallowed up in the corporate rage.

They're wanting words that kill you.

Wow - E!

Dress up in blue.

Shades yourself in the corner.

Bend down on your knees.

Pray for freedom at night.

And fade into the sunshine.

Then realize the scheme.

Disconnect and leave the wreck.

Cut all ties and then feel the effects of.........

Wow - E!

(Nothing can be so frightening as jumping out of an airplane or a

steam rolling ship across the ocean! Yet as men we do it! We consistently risk

all...... for what? Love? God? Our own egos? Figure it out?

Wow - E!

Whatever?

Off into the distance, a spirit I certainly saw.

With morals of solitude yet a soul deranged by laws.

The voices whispered in the wind.

Oh Lord.. whispered so gracefully.

And softly crossed my mountains.

It whispered just to me!

I wished my soul.

Whatever.

And I know now my home.

Is whatever.

I know my heart can beat like brand new.

Lord I have seen the stars shining right through you.....

But.... whatever!

I know what's blue.

Whatever.

And I have always have fantasized.

Whatever.

I've tasted you, I've tasted it on my yesterdays.

And I've been with you but couldn't seem to get......

Whatever!

I dream the that you.

Whatever.

Because I know the truth is.

Whatever.

I feel your desire blowing through my hair.

Like a silent whispering willow I know you're there.

Whatever!

I offered up my consistence.

And I fell upon my knees.

And wept for your clairvoyance.

When I felt a whirling breeze.

Just looking for admission.

But it feels so endlessly.

Do I need to climb a mountain.

To show that I'm in need.

Whatever!

16 Years Ago

Alone again.

Comfortably numb.

Just like my Mother said.

Feeling old and broken down.

Wasting time.

Watching all my dreams unwind.

Teardrops fall.

I'm in cloudy dreams.

All I knew was you and me?

I touched your cheek.

And felt the ecstasy.

I was simply smiling baby so in disbelief.

16 years ago

A babe in my arms.

16 years ago.

Chains around my heart.

After going down the hall.

Take me away from this unbelievable .

All I got is my mind.

And honestly.

That has left me behind.

16 years ago

A babe in my arms.

16 years ago.

Sometimes when I get obsessed.

For reasons out of my reach.

I feel I got to play my cards before it's to late.

But the cards keep on changing.

Only change to hurt me?

They are always constantly changing.

Changing to break my family.

And sometimes when I get depressed.

And fall inside my head.

I feel that I should float away and join the living dead.

Then a wave starts flowing.

Flowing through my heart.

And when this wave is flowing.

I go to God and turn into a shark.

16 years ago

A babe in my arms.

16 years ago.

Broken Hearted

She's got a love that I've never known.

Wrap my heart up in a bow.

I'm broken Hearted.

She's got a passion that I got to have.

You let me have it then you let me down.

I'm broken hearted.

Lover know if you could see my eyes.

You would see all the tears I've cried.

Open up... we'll take it for a ride.

She's got her own life - she's on her own.

Break my life down one more time.

I'm broken hearted.

She's got a look deep in her eyes.

Always left me hypnotized.

Now I'm broken hearted.

Baby I'm sorry for doing next to nothing

After the bells when we heard them ring.

I fell to my knees... just wanted to fly away!

You know my dreams yes you know them well.

You lifted me over the hill.

Yet now I'm broken hearted.

You took your love and left me here.

And now nothing seems at all clear.

I'm broken hearted.

Lover know if you could see my eyes.

You would see all the tears I've cried.

Open up... we'll find a highway in the sky!

She's got a love that I've never known.

Wrap my heart up in a bow.

Well.......................

I'm just broken hearted!

Dreamers

Drifters and dreamers are on of the same.

Go through their lifetime.

Intensely in pain.

But sometimes a dream....

Is realized.

I know it when I see your eyes!

I've been through some heartaches.

That break most men down.

Seen my loves and lives.

Come and go.

Like the sun going down.

But if you can hold on.

Real tight.

A dream can true overnight!

Dreamers........ dream on!

Love has a reason.

We just don't exist.

Because I've held my babies.

And I believe the reason is this.

I held you in my arms at night.

And sweetheart I know.

I just can't seem to let go.

Dreamers.......... dream on!

Felt it in music.

Touched you with a kiss.

I've been to Memphis baby.

And there I only wished.

Wished that I was Elvis.

Singing you this song.

Assuring you nothing can go wrong.

Dreamers........... dream on!

Baby your grace is never gone.

Just know I'm missing you.

You are out there smiling.

And me I'm just a fool.

But sometimes a fool.

Finds the light.

I know it when you come to my dreams at night.

Dreamers........... dream on!

Get Out

Am I centurion or millennium bound?
Gracefully standing before falling down.
And am I viscous for counting myself out?
Sparkling and gleaming like a diamond no doubt.

And if I could hear sounds that whisper through my shouts.
I would find a safety line and certainly climb out.
And if I could feel life piercing through my heart.
I think I'd have to look away and hope to just get out

Soon in time I'll get away.
And in my mind it'll be okay.
I'll find the strength that takes me away.
And get out!

I'll go exterior and turn everything inside out.
Knowing my perimeters are simply circling 'round.
And then I'll fixate on a dark and gloomy crowd.
Rinsing off the raindrops that are always falling down.

And if I could see all the hurricanes in flowers.
I would swallow all my lies and finally choke them down.
And then in a tear drop I would wipe away my smile.
Washing all my pain away and hope to just get out.

Soon in time I'll get away.
And in my mind it'll be okay.
I'll find the strength that takes me away.
And get out!

Am I adjourning like a jury to wore down?
Judging to quickly and ruling myself out.
And am I sickened when my hands are tied?
Believing in freedom of views before I choose to hide.

And if I should find love sailing within the horizon I found.
Drifting deep and way beyond the blurry world of frowns.
I think that I would wonder while tearing down my front.
Should I cast away my weary eyes and choose to just get out?

Soon in time I'll get away.
And in my mind it'll be okay.
I'll find the strength that takes me away.
And get out!
Get out!

With You!

All I really want sweet babe.

Is to wipe your tears away.

I've come to see you here.

Looking down on me.

And feel your Angels dreams.

Like watching falling leaves from trees.

I want to be with you!

Sitting on a hillside.

I've come to know and realize.

Life is only for awhile.

Then soon I'll be with you.

On clouds as heaven blooms.

I'll always be with you!

The sun shining down on me.

My soft eyed baby it's you and me.

I love you more than you can dream.

Just want to be with you.

My sleeplessness nights consumed.

Of being there with you!

Heaven I'm sure holds a special place.

For those who know Loves not to waste.

And better yet there's no disgrace.

To wish I was with you.

Still hanging on to what we dreamed.

And feeling your tiny warm heartbeat.

I wish I was with you!

Oh baby... I dream of being with you!

With You!

Her Name Is Music

The first man in black.

Was the great Johnny Cash.

So Fuck you!

Empty headed minds.

Go to hell all you evil scholars.

Walk across the railroad tracks.

And see your sorry ass turning back.

So Fuck you!

And your vain and senseless lives.

Stab my back all you hypocrites.

Changes came and paved the way.

Made the music you hear today.

Ohhh Fuck you!

Juvenile minds.

The endless pointless surreal crimes.

Her name is music.

Been around since the dawn of time.

So Fuck you!

All you goo-goo-ga-joobs.

Wanna bees are repugnant.

Why?

Close your eyes and relax.

Just drift away.

You're not dying.

You're only crying.

Baby you're not dying.

Only crying.

Sweet little girl it's cold.

In this world.

But when it's raining.

On your dreams.

Remember it's not always.

What it seems.

Sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Yeh sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Why?

I'm asking why?

Once upon a time I had a feeling.

That was always there.

And it will lead you.

Not leave you.

The feeling takes you there.

And never leaves you.

Sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Yeh sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Why?

I'm asking why?

Hold out your arms.

It's there.

Waiting for you.

We are all dreamers.

Sometimes not seeing.

It's easy dreaming.

Don't have to believe in.

Sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Yeh sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Why?

I'm asking why?

Sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Yeh sometimes.. I'm wondering and pondering.

Why?

I'm asking why?

I'm Sorry

I am alone tonight.

The wife and son are tucked away and dreaming.

Soaking in a sobering light.

My heart is drunk but still my heart is sinking.

And I'm sorry.

Yeh I'm sorry.

My baby cries in the dark of the night.

Daddy come home and teach me how to tie my shoes.

Hold my hand and squeeze me tight.

Don't let go because I might just start forgetting you.

And I'm sorry.

Yes I'm sorry son.

I'm sorry for breaking your smile.

With angry words that can scare a child.

So sorry for letting you down.

By being weak and leaving town.

And I'm sorry.

Yes I am sorry son.

I am so beyond myself.

The love is real yet you and me are drifting.

Baby boy I'll be coming around.

On the days and nights when Daddy's not drinking.

And I'm sorry.

Yes I am sorry son.

I'm sorry you heard your Daddy last night.

Breaking down and losing his mind.

I'm sorry I think I'm doing fine.

I miss your laugh and loving smile.

And I'm sorry

Yes I am sorry son.

I can only leave you these words.

That I love you son and all my hopes are with you.

Maybe I will win at the end of the line.

Until that time please know I'm thinking of you.

And I'm sorry.

Yes I am sorry son.

I'm sorry!

Media Child

Media child.

Sitting on the floor.

Watching cartoon raindrops.

Falling from unknown.

The door..... what's behind that door.

The door..... what's behind the door.

Babies breath and children need.

More!

Children cry and simply survive.

Media!

Pacified child.

Locked inside inside your eyes.

Caught up in a blue steel glow.

That most of us can't find.

We hide..... living in nursery rhymes.

Yes we hide..... it's easier than time.

The mystery of mind.

I see it all the time.

Lost without no judgement day.

It simply clouds the mind.

The mind..... plays tricks that lead to losing.

The mind..... will drift to an odd and cold perusing.

Babies breath and children need.

More!

Children cry and simply survive.

Media!

Everything!

I've held a life in my hands.

Was just growing to understand.

Everything about her.

Now I touch scenes of yesterday.

With clear vision that's swept away.

There's nothing like losing EVERYTHING!

Now everything is blowing my mind

And everything is like doing time.

Everything is out of control.

Oh God everything is moving so slow.

Everything!

Touched a life so new and small.

Wanted the time to discover it all.

Just everything about her.

Now it rains and there is no sun.

It just got started but so quickly done.

There's nothing like losing EVERYTHING!

Now everything is blowing my mind

And everything is like doing time.

Everything is out of control.

Oh God everything is moving so slow.

Everything!

Tried to fake a yearning smile.

Then cried through the eyes of newborn child.

I felt everything about it.

Now I walk stripped to the bone.

Lost my love and lost my soul.

There's nothing like losing EVERYTHING.

Now everything is blowing my mind

And everything is like doing time.

Everything is out of control.

Oh God everything is moving so slow.

Everything!

EVERYTHING!!

Bunker Hill

I'm going to lay my life down - this starry night I'll die.

Bleeding in the mud and blood - my dreams not realized.

I'll die tonight a rebel.

And slip into sublime.

I took a red coat bullet.

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I'll die

On Bunker Hill tonight.

For days we held the high ground - as cannons scarred the sky.

The haze was thick with screaming as my rebel brothers died.

I came here to fight for Boston.

And change the hands of time.

But now I lay here dying.

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I'll die

On Bunker Hill tonight.

The harbor was dense with warships - the water was red with death.

Through smoke and fire and flashes a lead ball crushed my chest.

I wanted to storm for freedom.

And tangle for something right.

I'm praying for reinforcements.

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I'll die

On Bunker Hill tonight.

We held the ground as long as we could - but we got barraged and tired.

Bravery our blinding force filled our hearts with desire.

The British troops are raging hell.

Marching in waves and lines.

Their soldiers fall but don't withdraw.

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I'll die

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I feel the sunshine laying me down - taking me from this fight.

I fought through fifteen hundred men and felt I was divine.

I'll cry farewell from the top of the hill.

And reach for the streaking light.

I'll die for the birth of liberty.

On Bunker Hill tonight.

I'll die.

On Bunker Hill tonight!

John Brown

A wind from the timber hills blew through your soul and your bones.

A fire from the burning South was scorching the black mans hope.

Gather your family and terrorize slavery.

Hunt the enemy down.

In the name of liberty you stormed through Virginia and found.

Thunder of war all around.

And there's blood on your bible John Brown.

Yes there is blood on your bible John Brown.

You raided the armory to seize the guns of evil.

You shot down a free man in hopes of gaining control.

Richmond militiamen rode through the night.

Aiming to shoot you down.

In the hopes of freedom you stood your ground and found.

A morning of death all around.

And they are howling for blood John Brown.

Yes they're howling for blood John Brown.

Madman or martyr - killer or hero

Robert E Lee tracked you down.

Are you glory bound and found?

Or are you burning in hell John Brown?

This is your holy war - never mind right or wrong.

In the Kansas winter mist a bloody encounter in town.

Witness the tragedy - brutal and endlessly.

Destiny's got you now.

On your mission of urgency you opened your eyes and found.

A murderous underground.

And your freedom is bleeding John Brown.

Yes your freedom is bleeding John Brown.

Hangman or soldier - vengeance or destiny.

A Civil War noose is yours now.

Are you high on your horse and crowned?

Or are you burning in hell John Brown?

Found guilty of murder your mesmerized by the sound.

From the rope in the wind of the gallows awaiting you now.

Fearing your destiny out on the hanging tree.

Fate is staring you down.

At the end of the journey your bones will decay in the ground.

Leaving your soul all unwound.

And there's blood on your bible John Brown.

Yes there is blood on your bible John Brown.

Madman or martyr - killer or hero

Robert E Lee tracked you down.

Are you glory bound and found?

Or are you burning in hell John Brown?

Are you burning in hell John Brown?

Wishing Wells

I once heard a singing bird.

Way beyond the bustling city chaos.

And I once knew a girl so blue.

Her eyes were wide but all her thoughts were so distraught.

And I recall.

As if her life was show and tell.

That morning light.

No more sharing fairy tells and wishing wells.

Oh that morning light.

There was no more sharing fairy tells and wishing wells.

And so I thought the better way was to fight it off.

Laying in bed and feeling sorry for myself.

But all my mind was caught up in the way she died.

Slipping away without even no goodbye.

And I recall.

As if her life was show and tell.

That morning light.

No more sharing fairy tells and wishing wells.

Oh that morning light.

There was no more sharing fairy tells and wishing wells.

Heavens frigid avenue took an exit straight to you.

Little one..... you were just a child.

Jolten Joe Dimaggo

"Jolten" Joe Dimaggio was a nations hero.

Yet alone he lay whispering while dying.

Marilyn Monroe left this world to soon for Joe.

And that's the reason for forty years of crying.

Baseball cards and bubble gum.

Are worthless when your heart is done.

And don't it seem so sad to see our Jolten Joe.....

Dimaggio.

Crying!

Hotel rooms and traveling around-waiting for the next train in town.

Maybe she'll show and take him away from counting days.

The pinstripe suit was laying down and Joe would dream her dancing around.

But to dance alone with memories just breaks your heart.

Baseball cards and bubble gum.

Are worthless when your heart is done.

And don't it seem so sad to see our Jolten Joe.....

Dimaggio.

Crying!

Legend tells the story well even without the kiss and tell.

Yet still is heart was always Hollywood wandering.

Adulation from a crowd and circle the diamond you know so well.

Because we remember all the times you made us cheer.

Baseball cards and bubble gum.

Are worthless when your heart is done.

And don't it seem so sad to see our Jolten Joe.....

Dimaggio.

Crying!

Staring Down Martyrdom

Just like day old babies seem so right.

Fairy tales and wishing wells inspire.

And just when the children smile heaven and hell collide.

That's where I'm wrapped around ghosts in the lost and found.

I feel the eyes looking down!

I sense the fear coming around!

Just like tired blue eyes and fire ignite.

Wedding vows and ringing bells are nice.

But just when the flowers bloom that's when love is doomed.

There I'll find martyrdom staring me down from above.

I feel the eyes looking down!

I sense the fear coming around!

Just like love is life's greatest surprise.

An angels wings can suddenly fail to fly.

And just when you got everything figured out.

Here comes a whirlwind that blows away everything.

I feel the eyes looking down!

I sense the fear coming around!

Hank

HANK!

Hank Williams Sr. Never new much about the man other than he was an original and a country music legend. April 26th, 2010. Something came to me? A dream or a meditative like experience... vision. Foggy yet somehow lucid at times. Seemed at first scary.

I sprang up from my sleepy state dripping with sweat and dizzy. Then it came to me and immediately put pen to paper before the moment escaped my recall. It was January 1st, 1953 and I was there..... in a limousine with HANK!

I never said a word as I was simply a spirit of sorts. Their to witness a man in a tortured and addicted ending. A young man, much younger than me. The limousine was parked and it was very dark. I don't think he knew I was even there? He was torn and speaking to God. The shadows that danced across his face were chilling yet hypnotizing. Hank did not really move at all except to down a shot from a whiskey bottle. I quickly sensed his genuine anguish and battle with addictions. Sensing his repentance with God knowing death was imminent.

Here's my dilemma,.... why me? Why was I thrust upon this surreal and spiritual moment in time to watch an icon die? Listen to hear him bear his soul moments before passing on. He was in an obvious drunken oblivion yet spoke words so eloquent and beautiful it shivered my soul. I still desire to understand what happened, why I was present in this moment?

Here is what I recall as (like I noted) I wrote it down the instant I arose from this happening.

HANK WILLIAMS SR.

"Lord must I go on benevolence? Must I look still to turn away from me? Each day brings a fresh load of terror. Fresh misery to my heart. Must I be the sport of my enemies? Look upon me... oh Lord. Listen to me. Cure the light of these eyes before they close in fear. Do not let my enemies claim the mastery and my persecutors triumph over my fall. I cast myself on thy mercy.....(mumbling moment of soft singing), I saw the light Lord yeh I saw the light."

It brought pain to my own heart as tears began to swell and an odd silence set in. Minutes passed when Hank returned to repentance.

"I'm trying... give pity... that's all. I just can't. You meet many men along lives busy streets with shoulders stooped, head down and low eyes that stare in defeat. There souls committed to pain where sorts of designs fall apart. Living in death, all in flesh. Men with broken hearts."

"Life can sometimes be so cruel that a heart can be broken. Oh Lord... why must these living dead know pain with every breath. Living dead is no way way with every breath. Some lose faith and love and wives. One sword shoots the dart. But with so called calm they have all come home. These men with broken hearts. I've never walked in that mans shoes while seeing through his eyes. I stood and watched with helpless hands while the whole heart inside me dies. So look closer to someone near you as some are masters at large."

"But in our shame... we are all the same... these men with broken hearts. I need to sleep on bended knees. As all these men that were cursed since birth have had no dreams or happiness in heaven or here on earth. How can man have faith in God when faith in ourselves departs? All of those who weep know death comes cheap..... for men with broken hearts. Well, that's all. I don't know what else to say except goodnight and God Bless"

"Say a prayer for me. Happy new year everybody.

Bells ring in the distant background, bringing in the new year of 1953, I am lost and floating now as the man.... Hank Williams weakly rolls his head and for the fist time realizes that I am there and makes a brief eye contact with me and speaks one word with his last living breath.

"Live"

As in Live your life........ I mused!

Butterfly

I watched a butterfly floating and fluttering without weight or heaviness. Mesmerized for a moment I suddenly understood. It's God! This is perfection. Not us, not mankind. We are the destructors of his divine creation. We_____ Us_____ are the true experimental test I mused? All other creation on this earth is not only simple and instinctive but perfect in every way. I believe in you God, it's right here in front of me..... your butterfly. Yet what gives men the right to impose a dictatorship on your creations? Your wishes? God...... do you bless me? Do you guide me?

You have watched millions upon millions of men, women and children not only suffer but experience torment, torture and death without justification.

MILLIONS AND MILLIONS!

SINCE FOREVER!

GOD?

Where are you when babies die, watching butterflies fly? So many stooped souls are crying out for relief and an end to constant heartache and pain. Where are you? In heaven, I know... comfortably observing your experiment of mankind destroying themselves in their pursuit of crusades and religion. In the name of God! It sickens me. Step up.....almighty God and save the suffering souls who do not need to saunter cluelessly into a stormy, bloody and horrible existence. SENSELESS!

Oh my butterfly glides without consciousness, pain or reality while we..... the appointed rulers of the maximum all fight a never-ending engagement with bloody horrible despair and death. It makes no sense???

The butterfly floats without compunction as we...... your rulers of earth and creed do not float at all. We ponder our battle of belief versus disbelief. Time to step up God! Send your beloved son to redeem our suffering! Is it not time? I was raised to rely on faith and have even recently started to attend church. God Bless! Amen! They all proclaim while the world around them is exterminating themselves.

The butterfly!

I want to be that butterfly. No nothing, no hope and hopelessness. No pain in the heart and no understanding that this world is EVIL! Let me be that butterfly Lord, my soul yearns. Why? I desire a diversion from what I know to be real. So many eyes closed and sunken in a daily torment of the soul. Why? Send him NOW!

I have been so close to death through obsession and passion, addiction and construction. My soul filled with anguish. Is it simply destiny all us millions that walk this earth in pain. Heaven talk to me now. I need to make sense of it all!

You have taken 2 of my babies and left me to wander..... well..... about everything. I still can't comprehend. My sweet Poppie, I curse you. I recoil from wanting to maintain any form of faith. She was perfection! My BUTTERFLY!!

Why not just end me now? God Bless! Amen! Hallelujah!

"Feels Like A Million Years"

"KEY OF G, CAPO 2ND FRET

Who hold me when I want to cry.

Who holds me when I feel like dying.

And who takes time to hold my hand.

And just once in awhile will take me flying.

I....... know now...... Life...... is so........... Real!

Yeh I know.......Life...... is so ............... Real! (God).

When I'm down and a souless drunk.

And when I know I'm breathing with Demons.

And I feel my heart is giving in.

And the everyday just feels like emptiness.

I...... know now...... Life..... is so............ Real!

Yeh I know now........ Life...... is so........... Real! (God)

Like a butterfly that just happens by.

And a Jumbo Jet fights out of a tailspin.

I've seen things that would break you down.

I'v been so lost it feels like a million years

Now I ........... have found............. Life.........is so............ Real! (God)

Yeh I have found................Living........... is so ............ Real (God)

He holds me when I cry.

And he holds when I feel like flying away.

And he holds me when I try to fly away.

And he warms me when I'm down.

Better yet I see the light.

And there's room .. still some vacancies.

And he.....holds me.....

He holds .... me.

He..... holds me.

He..... holds me.

He..... holds me.

He..... holds me.

He... holds me... mmmmmm.... yeh....

He holds me.............He holds me.

......................................................

Like a Baby!

He holds me.

Yes God hold me!

(So much better in "my" key of G when I strum it on the love of my life.. My Acoustic!)